Feeling much better, got a quote here!

Feeling much better now, but my medication keeps making doze off... didn't take it for lunch, so more or less could stay awake. Believe I should be ok by tmr! *Cross fingers*

Was studying for tmr's CA. Came across a quote that totally opposes to what I think!

My believe is "Ignorance is a bliss!"; but

Lecturer's stand is "Ignorant is not a privledge; it's your misfortune..."

Alamak, so cruel... lol... so who's side you agree wif? Think about it...

Terrible morning and noon....

I woke up @ 5am this morning, trying to finish watever I could for today's anatomy test. Although I managed to so called "finished" going thru the notes, the morning was terrible. At the start, I was actually feeling ok when I woke up. I left @ 6 and reached campus @ 730am. I even had 2 waffles and a cup of kopi-o. I continued to revise wat I believe I didn't really memorised until ard 850am... then the running nose worsen and I felt feverish... then a sudden headache attacked me. I felt horrible... My friends who were there early too, recommended that I go see a doctor. I wasn't in the condition to take any test, esp. my headache was killing me... so I went to clementi polyclinic(damn, wrong decision, I'll come to that later) since YIH health care center wasn't open.
I reached the polyclinic ard 908am, had to Q for pre-registration and only by 925 did I get my number for the consultation room. My number was 2188, how many people could get sick in a day!? in clementi!? diaoz... I waited and waited... shitz... waited so long... reminded me of when I reported sick in army camp... wasted so much time, esp when u r really sick... tt's a torment... my head was spinning and god how I wish I could die then. I wanted to get a painkiller but the place got crowded and rowdy... apart from the pain I was suffering, the people had to be so bloody noisy... are they sick or wat?! Finally after 2 hrs of waiting and suffering, (I coughed, blew my noise and had to press on my forehead to ease my headache) I finally met the doc. I can't understand why people waste so much time in the consultation room... waste other people's time... I only stayed there for like 6 mins MAX! wat the hell could they be doing in there? I really dunno.... To me, u juz state the sickness u have. then the doc giv u medicine. wat else? Sorry ah, I'm juz so pissed off... I see so many people who aren't as sick as I was, yet they make people like me wait for my turn, for so long... damn...
Worse of all, I still had to Q for my medication... damn... wrong choice to go polyclinic... I should have gone to a private doc.. faster than this... worse of all is tat I went clementi in the 1st place.. could hav gone to hougang one if I knew I wasn't feel well... wasted 3 hrs on bus journey in addition to the freaking time I wasted at the polyclinic... haiz...
So please lah people, if you're not sick... dun go clinic and DIAO people's turn and waste their time... dun let them suffer for your own pleasure/desire... thanks... I gonna take my medication and go to sleep liao... Monday still got another test... haben study yet... haiz... my nose's dripping mucus.. shit...

Sick....

Wah, so sick... last night couldn't stand it... very uncomfortable and cannot study... so went to slp... didn't study at all... die... today better pia for tmr's test... nv touch much at all... this time I die liao... haiz....
Juz saw my GF's blog, haha.. he put up our picture liao! diaoz... I look so horrible!!! Wah kauz... aiyah... ugly person wat.. lol...
Juz wanna tell everyone, becareful k, these days alot of pple falling ill... take care!

Wonderful day?

Wah, today was amazing... I totally didn't fall asleep today in lecture! So proud! Added one more count to staying awake in lecture in 5 semesters! lol
Well, somemore Prof Tong gave the class sweets coz Sunday's Halloween! So nice! What a great professor! Hmmz, if more could be like him.. then surely will hav fun in NUS one.
In addition, today I had my mechanics lab. Played wif chicken ligament and pig bone(should be bah). Haha, so funny... the things we usually throw away after dinner or while cooking turns out to be wat we're testing on! The 3-point bending test on the pig bone was fantastic! So fun! See the bone break. Prak! Drip drip... the blood all come out, plus the bone marrow! wahahahha. Sadistic liao me...
Hahaha, see lah! (This is for Wendy) Wan me to clear the bone marrow issit?! The lab TA also help me! Splited the group into guys and gals. Wahahaha, how to make me do for u? heehee... I even took a pic of Wendy handling the bone! Evidence! hohoho... but I wun post online if she dun allow lah... they complain that guys upload gals pic w/o permission... lol.. Besides... aiyah, gals muz touch such things more often. Muz know how to go into the kitchen and cook wat. Like that your bf then more happy! kekekeke

Ok, I better stop now. Gotta study for Sat's anatomy test. Somemore Monday got Design final exam/CA. JIA YOU!
Shitz man, think I'm falling ill too... soar throat plus slight flu liao... wtf pass to me!!!!!!!!!!????? lol... everyone better take care of your healthy ah!

My thoughts....

Warning!
Ok, this is another of my complains... may be it's a whinning... you can choose not to read it if you dun wanna hear me complain... lol



I was giving some things a thought.... I suddenly realised something that has always happened to me... Dunno why, but it did happened... shitz... All my life, err... 23 yrs at most, I've gone thru alot with the word love... ok ok, perhaps it's crush or one-sided love, since there was nv a start. It seems to me that, every gal who I like ultimately turns me away in some way or another... sometimes the excuses used to reject me were utmost depressing. Most of the time, I would go thru some very hard period, trying to pick myself up... which took too long to recover...

I told "Darling" once before, my heart is shattered into pieces... everytime that I put the pieces back together, another person shatters it once more... bits and pieces they are... harder to put back as the number increases... All whom I have given my heart to, are those who kill it... sometimes I wonder, why do I wan to feel this way? Why muz I like/love someone... haiz... It does seem like my heart is dead... becoz now there's no one in my heart, except for 2 most important women in my life... my mum and my god-sis...

But suprisingly, I realised something.... these few months, I've been hanging out with a few people, female friends in particular. I dunno why, but I'm always happy when I'm out with them, eating, shopping, drinking, anything! I juz feel very happy and at ease wif these people ard me. How come it's these people who bring laughter and smilez to my life, lesser the burden on my heart and helping my heart heal bit by bit?

It's so contradicting... people who I love turn out to be the ones who hurt me the most, while those people who I care for (mostly friends, some very close ones) are the ones who bring me happiness?

Argh.... all the more that makes me puzzled.... does this mean that love is out of my agenda already? Hav I given up all hopes to love another? My friends are always the ones bringing me happiness, do I really need to fall in love? to feel pain and hurt once more? hmmz... I really wonder if I will ever fall in love again... Will there ever be anyone who'll change this thought of mine? we shall see....

A nite by the waves...

Last nite was a special nite... My "baby" asked me to company her to drink. She was rather depressed with her problems... so I believe she needed someone to be wif her when she's drinking, and yes.. I'm very glad the person she approached was me. I wun talk about her problems here, coz it's her personal stuff... but still, apart from that.. it was an enjoyable nite, and she was juz such a wonderful company to be wif.
So, I went to pick her up at her place ard 635pm. But aiyah... gals ah... always like to make guys wait! hahaha... but it was worth the wait, as she appeared great in my eyes... (hee) We had dinner first. She recommended the Hokkien mee around her place, hmm... it was quite good actually, but I purposely bring it down juz to ka jiao her. hahaha... then we took the train to city hall, went to Carefour (spell?) to get some liquor. I think that since we ain't clubbing but juz wanna drink, there was a much suitable place rather than a pub where we could talk. So we made way to the area next to the Esplandna (spell again?), the Durian of S'pore lah! The area where you could actually sit and listen to the waves... smoothing and sweet... But guess wat! Everything was turning fine, we got the liquor, the location... but omg! no bottle opener! DIAOZ.... my keys and keychain were of no help, my teeth weren't the right thing for it... so I had to ask her wait for me while I go get one. I ran and ran to Marina Sq(or wat it used to be called), dun hav... so go all the way to City Link 7 eleven. I really gotta thank the cashier for giving me the opener free, but I bought something as a token of appreciation. Thank you!
Then back I went to her, sweaty and hot... hahaha, lucky she didn't mind my perspiration. So then we started to drink and talk... and yes... God plays on us all the time, it started to drizzle... aiyo... sianz... so we packed and went in search of another place. But by the time we got to another location, around Marina Sq., it stopped raining but thunders still roared. But we still managed to find some place to settle and finish off our drinks... hahaha, she was so adorable, getting tipsy rather soon (heehee, I made her mix liquor... bad oh?). But she looked so sweet with those rosy cheeks! hahaha... okok, dun write too much... wait u all think something going on here! lol.. Then after everything, I sent her home after that lah.. I not tat bad hor... A guy's gotta do wat a guy's gotta do! hahaha...
It was quite a fun nite for me, since she is juz such a nice gal... always let me ka jiao! hahahaha... I really enjoyed myself.. but I really hope that the nite was fun for her, most importantly... tat she can get over her problems... Hope that she can put it down and get on... Cheer up Baby!

PS: Baby! Haha, I dun think I'll repeat what I said yesterday! You only get to hear it once! Muahahhaha.. You can try! heehee

Are you attached?

Haha, doesn't tat tittle sound familiar? Come on... how many times have your relatives and friends popped that question? Admit it! if you dun, I will! heehee... Countless times... almost every year, I'll be asked at least once! Hahaha.. kinda sick of it, but then I noe my relatives are juz concerned... if I turn GAY! WAHAHAHAHHA!
No lah, I'm writing this post coz today someone special to me asked me this question. I was like "huh"? Coz she asked quite directly... can't remember her words in MSN, but it was similar. I was like no... hahaha... not so soon, esp. only after a few months that something important in my life happened. Well, I've wrote it in my webpage coz it'll become too long to write here. Her reason for asking are written there and I declare somethings there lah. You want you can navigate your way there thru my homepage or juz click this link.

2nd overnight in school!

Wah, think most of you all will now that I stayed overnite in school yesterday. My MSN nick was "Fucking in sch!". Hahaha, sorry ah... not pissed off or wat, juz thot that it was fun to write it this way! Well, it was my official 2nd time in campus over the 0000hrs clock!
Well, yesterday Chang & Eng & me went back to school to bia our Engin Pro Project @ 8pm. Actually it was quite fun to do such things once in a while, esp when school life is so boring with juz studying and tutorials, goin to school and going home, etc. Chang & Eng, ok lah, SC and Ah Fu, were great companions to do projects. It was great working wif them, but then ah... SC tell ghost story make me hair stand... esp it happened in the area where we were.. duh.. lol... but ok lah... nothing happened and I was kinda glad! So we bia from 8 plus till 1 plus lah... I think it's done for the report but we still have our powerpoint to do. Other day then do lah, so tired liao... but surprisingly Ah Fu and me "couldn't" sleep... I was dozing off and but couldn't really fall asleep... when it came to around 3 plus... then I really collapsed... on the sofa! hahahha. The slept until 830am, wah... first time weekday I can wake up at this timing! hahahhahaha...
Had breakfast wif them at YIH Dily's... kopi, toast bread and "3/4" boiled egg! diaoz.. Ah then ah, Liling sms me ask me whether wanna eat breakfast. Well, think she thot of me coz monday I usually go early one... hahahhaaha... I call her come YIH dun wan... so da pai... kekekke.
Then went SC's hostel to freshen up. But guess wat!? It started to pour! Damn! Hahaha, got really wet from the belt down! Dun understand why my shorts were wetter than my top... hmm... weird.... Anyway, the day was long and tiring... but still ok. Then after class suddenly got meeting... I so blur liao dunno wat I sayin then too.. lol... but then I missed the chance to go catch a movie... wanted to catch lame show White Chicks... but by the time I got to the cinema it would be a 730 show and ends around 9.. too tired.. so forget about it.. now resting myself. So long nv feel so gd liao.. hahaha
Finally, left with Design project, 2 presentation, 2 CAs.. and finally exams... hohohohoho

Phew...

Finally it has come to the end of wednesday! Tmr gotta hand up 2 assignments, err.. actually 1 of them is my lab report. Kinda finish the lab report already... more or less dun wan to change liao... too tired to do it anyway... sian liao lor... Then still got Ah Tong's (haha) thermodynamics tutorial... haben do much yet... going to soon. Then friday gotta hand in Prof Goh's Term Paper, finally I also dun wanna change it liao... did wat I think should be ok liao.. no point do so much liao.. exhausted... now wat major left is my Engin Pro Project and my Design project. Plus their presentations.. hurry... I cannot wait for them to end... so sick of them liao... oh yah... still got 4 lab reports to do b4 the exams start.. damn... sian sian sian... I feel like I'm in Yr 4 already... so bz and tired... AM I really old already? I think so... my back hurts these days and so I've order some calcium pills to take. Really think I need to get my bones strengthen or else I'll die very soon.. lol

BIE3! Nice yah? Know which is me? Haha, not too bad rite?


click picture to see the actual size one!

InJustice!

Finally the old issue has been dug out after one of my friends found the forum of CM1121, Organic Chemistry, in someone's blog... It's about me and I was somehow condemned for doing something which I tot was required. Details of the forum can be found but please read my friend's blog as he posted the issue addressing my injustice. Thanks again Shaolong!
http://sydralz.blogspot.com/2004/10/piece-of-faggot.html#comments

You can see what is wrote on the forum by clicking on the person's blog which Shaolong has linked in this post. I dun wan to peer pressure people into thinking I was right, You decide it....

Juz to add:
To the owner of http://june23.blogspot.com
1)If by doing so to keep the lecture quiet means I'm sucking balls to get good results, I could juz suck some fucking rich person and be wealthy, wtf do I need to study? Use your brains use your brains!
2)I said I wasn't smart, that doesn't mean I'm stupid. You don't know English ah? Go back to elementary school and get your facts rite before accussing someone...

In life people juz take things for granted...

Argh!!!!

Went to cut my hair after project meeting today... actually wanted to cut undercut... but then I met the same barber again! The one who cuted my hair "crew" cut!!!! Last time I asked for a 4 by 2 hair cut, as u all should noe it means 4 fingers at the back and 2 on the side... it ended up a "CREW" cut! ARMY style! Shitz.... then juz now the barber cut, he cut and cut... then DIAOZ... cut short liao... I wanted to leave long hair one.. .but now hav to restart again... haiz... sianz...



See! So short! Argh!!!!

Juz wanna write!

Ok, I juz wanna write something... today was a alrite day... esp. since the tragic of yesterday.... well, kinda ok liao... it's juz the sentimental moment where something close to u goes away... haiz... but I'm glad the rest of my fishes are still alive! Well, think my GF commented in my last post tat maybe one's tragic is another's blessing? The conservation of happiness???? LOL.. perhaps he's rite? I dunno, but I'm sure not everyone is happy at a single moment, there are pple happy and unhappy always at a time.... Nvm tat....
Wat's more impt is tat today I went to Bishan to get a present for my darling... her birthday this Sunday... but I dun think I'm celebrating wif her... so met up wif her to pass her her present. Finally got to see her in her uniform... haha, not bad lah... why she always say ugly... lol... looks pretty no matter wat! My darling leh! And yes, it seems tat no matter wat, when I'm wif her, things really brighten up! I felt really happy being beside her.. coz she juz so entertains me! Such a special and wonderful friend of mine! Well, but guess wat! Though I claim tat she's a very impt and close friend, I actually forgot her age! OMG!!! Hahaha, I kinda got her a 21st birthday present... DIAOZ.... so it seems like I can actually skip nx yr's present! Hahaha... *bleah* But she ok wif it lah... see! Such a wonderful gal. kekeke...
Sent her home and got to see her new place and room, hmm... a bit untidy but definitely better than mine! All in a evening's day of work! Muahahah... Though it was short, it was enjoyable for me!
Ok ok, think I siao liao... under too much stress... gotta go bath and start on my Term Paper... Ganbatte!

PS: Darling, go see doctor hor... sick muz get medication... >.<

Happy turned horror day....

Everything seemed wonderful after class... meeting up with Celine and SC for dinner... crapping, kena suan... made Celine ate fish gravy prata which she didn't like... paiseh... It was nice watching SC and celine talk this and that, I was so entertained... it was enjoyable... I liked to see people joke ard and smile...
After dinner and ice cream at Mc, we left and Celine and I took 151 home. Not bad, I could crap wif her a little... Nice to see that I haben lost my touch there!
Well, now the horror starts... I came home and bathed... was about to start on my Biomechanics term paper... when my brother told me tat my my gold fish die! Fuck..... totally turn my mood off... really feeling very bad and down... my fishes tat gone thru a long time wif me died all of a sudden... 5 of them... 2 of which were my favourite... really dunno if I wanna continue to rear my fishes... haiz... day ruin by such unpleasant mishaps... *prays tat the rest of the goldfishes doesn't die tonite...*



old pics of my goldfishes...


My upside down swimming gold fish... died...


My fav. panda goldfish... died too....

Waiting for dinner!

Haha, complain so much in the previous post... now write a bit good one lah... As u read, I'm waiting for dinner... having dinner with my GF and his freshie, Celine... and guess wat? Of all the places, Techno Edge! LOL... Still waiting... hungry liao... >.<

So lost...

Today was a tiring day... started lessons at 9 but I reached school at 8.15am. Morning wasn't tat bad, I was still quite awake. Met Xinpei to get some notes, really very helpful for my tutorials. Thanks Bei Bei! Hahaha... Well, the afternoon class started, I was so shocked... I totally had no idea wtf was going on... Biomechanics! OMG... I really haben started revising on this module and touch its tutorial... die manz... so today Prof. Toh go thru I totally lost.... plus he explain briefly only.. so nv copy much help.... Worst of all, I felt so tired and dozed off... perhaps I missed out alot... coz I dunno the shit they were going thru when I woke up! Shitz.... must find time to revise then do all the tutorials... but now I still having those stupid term paper and projects.... By 19/10/04, I'll be free of all these stupid work and left wif 2 presentations... Very tired... let this sem go by soon! I'll nv take 6 modules in a sem AGAIN!

Life's a bitch! Dun bother forcing yourself to do everything in a day... enjoy if u can, life's juz too short...

I'm still in school on a Saturday!

Shagged... now it's 5.25pm and I'm still in school. All the way from 8 am till now... lessons and then project discussion. Dun be freaked out! It's not Design, it's Engin Pro! Hahaha... Juz realised that the deadline was much nearer than we expected, so muz rush liao... Our project like alot things to settle... alot of details.. and alot of contradictions and misleading facts from different sources.. damn... muz figure out wtf is correct... lol
Got to bia this one liao.. still got Biomechanics term paper haben start yet... die... no test but alot of work... I muz ganbatte! All my friends too hor! work hard!!!!

幸せ

Today was a very happy day for me! Even though I was really exhausted from swimming in the morning! COZ.... I met up wif my kettle!!!
More than 9 months nv see her liao... so long no see lucky she still reognize me! Hahaha... she is one person who nv fails to brighten up my day, coz she's juz such a wonderful person to be wif! She's sweet, chatty, very adorable, blah blah blah... Too bad she's taken lor! hohoho... But she's still a good friend of mine! hmm, I call her darling last time leh... so can say she is a rather close friend of mine lah! How to say, she was one friend who accompany me when I was in a down phase....
Last time used to go out wif her quite a number of times during her final yr in poly( last yr), but now so hard to meet up... she's bz wif her work and I'm bz wif class.. besides she still has to pei her bf mah... (I dun have!) heehee... Nevertheless, hope that there'll be more chances that we can go out together in future lah!
Hmm, this reminds me of my God-sis too! Alamak, I almost 1 yr plus nv see her liao!!!! She so bz also, fly her and there... so long nv contact... hard to meet her also, her time schedule very hard for me to organise a outing... plus she also have to pei her bf... hmm... how come I always wanna meet someone working and who has a bf? Hee... they always so hard to find time leh... hahahhaha, does this mean I'm cheap and desperate? Perhaps... kekeke... But I really hope I can find time to meet up with some old close friends of mine... well, all grow up liao... working or studying... not very free lah everyone... but hope all my friends still remember me hor! >.<

"Friends can be treasures that last forever, do treasure those who have gone thru good and bad times wif u... as a true friend is a rare gem to find..."